What a wonderful day I had today... :)
First I got a chance to sleep in till like 12 -- I'm not at PPD anymore and I'm free to do anything I want -- so that was very refreshing to enjoy my own bed... :)

Then I got ready and I headed to the mall for some shopping -- that can never be a bad thing and I had a blast... I got a couple of things at Express, though I personally think they had way better collection last year and two years ago, and Body Central, which was really interesting since I never shop in there, but I just couldn't miss out on those $14.50 linen pants that were long enough for me AND I was looking for for like forever... :) Amazing steal... :)

On the way back home I stopped at the tanning salon and enjoyed getting some "sun" -- I got sooo pale lately it's scary... lol

When I got home I got ready and then headed out with Donny to our friends house for dinner... N&J were so much fun and I'm so grateful I'm getting to know more and more fun people here in Austin... I need friends around!!!! Dinner was also delicious and I just can't wait to try that recipe at home...

Now I'm returning emails, facebook messages, blogging and in a second I'll learn how to tie a scarf into a shirt (not a tube top)... I HEART youtube... :)

So I'm at PPD again... This time it's just me and no more Donny at the study with me... :(
But I met an awesome girl and she's my roommate and it's so funny how we clicked from day 1...
We always find something fun to do... Like we started watching Sons Of Anarchy -- it's a new tv show and we got so hooked (thankx Baby)... We stay in bed all day with the lights off and just watch it... The only breaks we take are for food or potty... Lol
Yesterday Courtney and I decided to do our hair... So we blow dryed it and styled it with the flat iron... It was awesome.... :)

I also downloaded an App on my iPhone to make beautiful collages but since today was a super busy and full day in here, so I'll post those pics of Donny, Avi and I later this week... :)

So eventhough I have about 14 days left in here, I'm trying to stay as busy as possible doing little fun projects like that and also planning my trip to San Padre for a springbreak... :) I'm sooo excited.... :)

So to update my life a little bit in a New Year I should probably say that PPD days are over for me for a little bit and I'm glad that I can enjoy an outside world... Even though it was fun to relax and catch up on sleep, I was missing Avi way to much and so I was super excited to spend Christmas with him...
He's such an incredible little boy and teaches me so much every day... First thing that comes to my mind is PATIENCE, since I'm so not good at it... To back this statmenet up with an example I'll tell you this story -- I guess it's the most recent -- Avi just finished working on number 2 while we stayed at friends' house for New Years and I was in the kitchen checking my emails on my phone when I heard Avi calling me... At a time I thought he was just trying to play and so I told him to wait a little bit till I'm finished... He waited and then sure enough called me again with a nice and sweet voice... After maybe 4 or 5 minutes I went to check on him and he was standing by the toilet ready to be wiped... Other than it made me feel like a bad Mom and person, I thought about how patient my little boy is, not getting upset or rude and that he's a great example for me how I can work on myself and not get frustrated with others...

Going back to my update though... Olivier and I spent Christmas with Donny and his family and we had tons of fun... Not only we got lucky on not cooking -- read I did -- but also got a lot of presents that we love... I got Couch purse that I wear lately all the time and I'm glad it's black with three different departments -- I can keep it rganized at ALL times -- and it's just perfect size too -- not too big and not too small -- very classy... :)
I also got a DVD player in my car that I loooooooveeeee....
All cds are playing great and I can just touch the screen to change radio stations and the best part is I have bluetooth on it so I can talk on the phone while I'm driving....
New gym shoes came in handy also since I'm going to the gym for 7 days now -- excluding Sunday -- and I'm on FIRE!!! :)
But I also got something from Poland that I'm so in love with... A beautiful folklor - istic scarf that I just can't stop wearing...
I got a bunch of other stuff as well but I'm just not gonna brag about it I guess... lol
All in all Christmas was great... And next year it'll be white because Donny, Olivier and I might be in Poland... :)

I welcomed New Year with Donny and Olivier at my friend's house where we watched tv and relaxed... Ha ha ha... It's kind of funny that I didn't go anywhere... Especially that I'm such a party animal and always want to go somewhere... :)

Also I welcomed 2011 with
*a new, spacious 2 bedroom apartment -- I'll post pics as soon as I organize everything -- that has an amazing location plus is not very expensive...
I still have to get a bunch of stuff for it but it feels like home already... :)
* shopping trip to the Domain -- clothes, and IKEA -- home stuff
* completely switching to MAC cosmetics... :)

So this is it as for an update...
From the up to date stuff I'm back at Saltgrass and I must say I really enjoy my work and am glad there's no more Express... :)

Also today I went to the funeral of my friends Grandma and that made me think of my Dziadzius... He was a great man and I've been so blessed to have somebody like him in my life...

And it made me think about all the blessings in my life that I have right now... :) Life's good... Nothing what I expected but nevertheless good...

Tomorrow is my day 14 of being in PPD and it's going to be a little hectic and crazy because I'll be having ECGs every hour with the cute little icardiac monitors... Ha ha ha... It'll be fun... :)

Other than that this is the first year that I bought some XMas presents online and now I'm waiting for a lot of stuff to arrive... I'm kind of nervous if everything will end up being PERFECT and what I expected it to be but I'll definately find out sooner than later... :)

I still have a couple of things to buy at the mall but nothing major... Avi is going to have an amazing XMas and I just can't wait to see his little face light up when he sees them all under the XMas Tree... He's 4 and he definately is already aware of Santa and all his "business"... :)

I'm also excited for all of my presents coming to me from all different directions of the world and most importingly just knowing that I'm being thought of and loved makes it so much easier because to be completely honest there are things I'll miss tremendously....

I should not even have to mention MY FAMILY and SNOW or all my Moms AMAZING cooking or my DADs' XMas Day BREAKFAST or trying to see if the first star has already lighten up the sky or LOOKING at the decorations that other houses have across the street from us if they are WATCHING for the FIRST STAR or still getting ready -- but I'll keep my mind open and see what happens, because I'll remember whose birth are we celebrating on CHRISTMAS EVE...

I guess life's NEVER what we expect it to be but as long as we anticipate the unexpected and unpredictible, we are well prepared and as long as we keep trying to make the best of what we have and think of others we can make it work and find HAPPINESS... :)

So as I lay my head to sleep tonight I'll keep all my loved ones in my prayer and try to feel more CHRISTMAS SPIRIT... :)

Day 10 at PPD is almost over and I'm actually glad cuz first of all that means I'll be able to enjoy the outside in just 6 days and second of all I'll be able to shop -- yeah some things will NEVER change -- and third of all but basically MOST important I'll see the cutest boy on earth to me... My little angel Avi... :) I can almost feel his lil head resting on my shoulder or saying something silly or brushing my hair or just coming close to me and just giving me a hug for no reason...
He's such a HUGE blessing in my life and I can't imagine my life without him...
He changed me to the core and made me see a lot of things through his or just totally different perspective... Incredible thing... PARENTING....

Which leads me to another thought and BLESSING in my life... But starting at the beginning... When you think that you possibly can not endure any more pain in your unhappiness and think that all the door were shut just in front of your face one by one and think that there's no light at the end of the tunnel and you kind of try to settle for it (even though deep down inside you're praying to wake up or at least trying so hard not to believe in what's around you), GOD opens the WINDOW for you and lets the light appear to you...

And that's what happened to me... ONCE MORE in my life...
The day I decided to leave church, pack up my things and RUN -- that was something I was always good at, anytime there was something screwed up in my life beyond repair or when repair was just too difficult and I wasn't ready to swallow my pride (I think that one of those days I'll choke on it) -- I got asked to go to the RODEO by a friend that ended up telling me how he loves his family and spends Sundays with them and how important Sunday is to him, big meals that his family is eating every Sunday and how when he was on his mission in Argentina....
Ha ha ha....
HE was a MORMON...
Funny how mysterious are GODS' ways...
I opened up completely that night talking about what a lost cause I was and what kind of rollercoaster I was and about my marriage failing and most of all ME failing life and me failing being a mother right with it...

I guess the rest is the history because I'm with that boy up untill this day (and I guess when I'm bad I can always say I TOLD YOU SO) and have hope for a normal life and family and stability and LOVE...

And that brings me to another thought... I'm so thankful and grateful and full of love that I want to give some of that back to the world to people who are lost like I was or those who might think there's no light at the end of the tunnel, those who are helpless, lonely or in need...
And so this year during the XMAS SEASON I want to volunteer and give thanks to all I have by helping somebody else...

I actually did it in Humble last year along with my Mom where we were little elves finding presents for little kids... NOTHING filled me with more joy and gratitude that that experience and so this year I have so many things to be thankful for... :)

Man I honestly can't believe it's been a year since my last post....

And I've been thinking about blogging but since life got hard and there wasn't that many positive things happening around me -- or due to me being so disappointed, sad and depressed so I could not see the positives -- I missed a YEAR of my life and AVI'S and it's sad, so TODAY I decided to stop crying about what happened and GET UP, take control of my own life, start counting my blessings and make the BEST of every day that has been given to me....

I don't know yet how I'll try to update that past year and put some pics of my journey called LIFE

but I'll do my

BEST... :)

So I guess I'll start with today....

It's my day 9 of being at PPD where I do medical study to help

people with artheritis and am waiting for my big paycheck that will come on

day 19.... :) Just honestly can't wait... :)

Definately with that money I'll finally will be able to get my own apartment

and have some stability that is sooooo much needed in my life these days....

It's funny how I am always longing for opposites....

When I have stability and peace, I miss crazy speed of life...

And when life is like a neverending storm, I'm begging to finally see the stable ground under my feet....

And I guess the key is to find my HAPPY balance -- LOTS TO LEARN -- on my end... :)

But I'm reading that great book by Elizabeth Gilbert called "Eat, Pray, Love" -- also had a chance to see a movie with Julia Roberts --

and I must say it helps me heal after the divorce...

(Gosh I can't believe I just said that in here and that I'm NOT trying to hide it)

Just reading about somebody trying to find their own happiness and balance, after the divorce, makes me feel not as isolated and bad...

So I guess I'll go and read some more....

The main character is still in Italy and it brings a lot of memories from when I've been there with my sister when we were just kids...

Good old times.... :)))

So... Life's been a little crazy in here for me, but it's all good cuz a lot of stuff has happened and I LOVE being busy and doing stuff all the time and so I'm more than happy to be in constant movement tho definately I'm enjoying my days off and am more appreciative to my rare relaxation moments... :)

This weeknd was mostly spend on listening to Conference, taking naps, eating and just enjoying each other tho I cant's say I was not busy... :)

Just on the contrary when Bryan was gone for the Priesthood session yesterday evening, I managed to finish the laundry, did hand wash laundry as well, did my pedicure and manicure -- this time I went for a rock'n'roll black -- did some facials and just pumpered myself, not mentioning reading 4 books to Ollie and putting him to bed... :)

Last weekend my girlfriends and I went to the RS portion of the Conference and just before we listened to the wonderful talks (my favorite was by Barbara Thompson) we made 250 heart shaped pillows for the breast cancer patients and that made me feel sooo good inside, cuz first of all we helped other women out there and second of all they were just sooo cute! :)



Afterwards we all decided to go and have some icecream... Such a great night... :)

Also on Saturday morning Bry and I took Avi to the ZOO and he loved every moment of the trip... He was even behaving most of the time... lol

At the beginning of the week I had a chance to go to Tomball to the managers conference for Express and I've learned a lot about giving a wonderful customer service in our store... It was very positive and left me with the feeling of being empowered and being able to make changes for the better... :)

The end of the week got a little hectic due to the floorset and working many hours but it's all good cuz I had an amazing weeknds afterwards... :)

I also finished reading my The Boleyn Inheritance book that I really enjoyed and also am about to finish another one -- There Is No Death -- today or the latest tomorrow... :)

Avi on the other hand learned new words this week and I'm so impressed with him! He can say Dziadzius (which means Grandpa in Polish), Spongebob, bubble and starts speaking full sentences... Soooo happy for that.... :)

I was starting to wonder and trully worrying about his speech...

And tomorrow I think I'll have an easy day at work since I'm opening and have the whole afternoon/evening off and then on Tuesday I only have a meeting in the morning and then I'm going to have my hair done... Soooo excited!!!

And now I'd better go to bed and get some sleep... :)